On any other day I might just go crazy...

There's nothing special about today, just that when I left for work this morning I turned on my iPod and this was the first song I heard. It kinda made my day seem a bit brighter, in spite of the clouds and the cold...

I was thinking the other day about my trip to Rome next month, whether I should still go with everything that's going on there right now with the Romanians. Feels like I'm going to a war zone... Anyways, been talking to people about this and most of them said I should just go and not let myself influenced by what's happening. Oh, and try to speak as little Romanian as I can... God, why should I be afraid of being what I am? Why should I be ashamed of being Romanian? I know Italians are overreacting, and the truth is that out of 60 crimes only 7 are commited by Romanians, and most of them are gipsies. But this has taken on bigger proportions than it should have. Most of the "Romanian criminals" are gipsies and this affects Romania's image in a bad way. We should really do something to improve it...

On a more happy note, I just bought tickets to Madonna's concert on August 26th :).

I'll leave you with Bon Jovi for the moment...

Alarm clock rings, it's 6:45,
Must have hit that snooze button least 3 times,
Wishing this morning was still last night,
On any other day, just might wanna die.

Traffics backed up 20 miles to the east,
Must have hit every damn red light on the street,
Weatherman says "It's gonna rain for a week"
Hey, what can you do?

On any other day, I'd be blue eyes cryin',
I could tell the world, 'At least I'm tryin',
The clouds are breakin',
The sun is shinin' new for me and you.
On any other day, I would just go crazy,
the grace is knowing that you're gonna save me,
Baby luck and love,
Will pull us through?
On any other day
Yeah, Yeah!

On any other day, I might just stay in bed
Sit down in a sea of blankets
Pull them up over my head
Get your papers in the morning

Just to get a little edge

Then maybe just give up in time to do it all again
Hey, I like where this is going
Yeah, 'cause I know where it's been

Alarm clock rings, it's 6:45,
I like waking up with you on my mind
Knowing that you're saving me
One more time.

On any other day, I would just go crazy,
the grace is knowing that you're gonna save me,
Baby luck and love,
Will pull us through?
On any other day
Yeah, Yeah!

My own personal brand of heroine…

I’m a vampire freak. Always have been and for sure always will be. That doesn’t mean I like drinking blood or I put on white compact powder, use tons of black eye-liner and crimson-red lipstick. No, I just like vampire stories.

Thus, for a few weeks now I’ve developed a “Twilight” obsession. Yeah, I know, the virus that’s been going around has made another victim. It all started from a harmless discussion with a friend about another vampire movie, “True Blood” (ok, TV series), also based on a series of books. This one just started on HBO here so at that time I hadn’t seen it. Same thing with “Twilight”. But my friend made me curious and I “Googled it” and “IMDB’d it”. Found two of the books, “Twilight” and “New Moon”, which were already published in Romania so I ordered them online. Yeah, too lazy to go to a bookstore, I know, but this way I could also take advantage of my 10% discount I have at that certain publishing house ;). So, long story short, I read the two books in one week-end and then downloaded the other two, “Eclipse” and “Breaking Dawn”, in English. Read them the next week-end, when I also decided to go see the movie at the cinema. Well, I had my mind made up on seeing it for the entire week but couldn’t find anyone else interested. When finally a friend said she’d go with me, she called two hours before the movie saying something came up and she had to cancel. But that didn’t stop me. When I set my mind to something I have to do it. Which I did. Got into my car, drove to the mall, bought one ticket and enjoyed each and every minute of the movie! Never had imagined that that Cedric Diggory character from “Harry Potter” would make such a cool vampire, lol! Some people never cease to amaze ;). The movie was really well done and the soundtrack is amazing! Loads of rock, as I like it ;). There was one thing that seemed really funny, to me at least, in front of the high school there was a sign that said "Forks High, Home of The Spartans". Made me think of "300"...

It’s been a while since a book impressed me that much. I think the last one that did was Cecelia Ahern’s “P.S. I Love You”. I’m not sure if it’s the part about the vampires and werewolves that got to me or the intense love story between Edward, the vampire, and Bella, the human, with all the ups and downs, with all the good and the bad... Or who knows, maybe it was the rivalry between Edward and Jacob, the Indian / werewolf, for Bella’s heart, especially Jacob’s perseverance in trying to win her, although her choice was clear. Guess I put myself too much in Bella’s shoes. There were some similar situations I have gone through, maybe too many times, that I don’t want to go through again… And there were some things I’m longing to live and to feel too. Like having someone tell me “You are my life now” or “You’re like my own personal brand of heroine…”. I want to be someone’s life and I want someone to be mine…Although, having to decide between two people I love and who love me back is not something that appeals to me. One person is enough :)

It’s about time this solitude of mine ended! And the fact that today is Valentine’s Day is not helping at all…

Am really looking forward for next week-end, to spend some quality time with my friends at the mountains. That should keep my mind occupied for at least two days ;)

P.S. I was just fooling around on a site I found (http://www.taaz.com) when I created the photo above ;)

wish list

One of my first posts on my 360 blog was a wish list with things I wanted to accomplish in the near future (not big things, like world peace or discover penicillin – oh wait, it’s already been discovered – but small things that to me mean a lot). I checked the list again in December 2007 to see what I did and what not. I should have checked it again last December, just to keep with the tradition, but unfortunately it was a time I had stopped blogging. Since it’s only January I don’t think it’s too late to do it now. So here it is:

1. see Bon Jovi in concert – DID IT!!! June 4th, 2008 - Ebreichsdorf, Austria
2. find a boyfriend (a real one, not someone who pretends to want a relationship just to get me in bed) – darn, I let myself be fooled again…
3. spend more time with my friends – I’ll have to work more on this one
4. visit Dublin – was planning to do it this year, but man those Aer Lingus plane tickets cost so much :(
5. see Bon Jovi in concert – see no.1 :)
6. visit the pyramids - still time
7. visit the Parthenon – unless I go to Paris in September, Athens is my next destination (after Rome, in March :))
8. see Bon Jovi in concert – see no.1 and 5
9. go to San Francisco – I think this is no longer something I should consider (friends know why), and instead I should change it into go to Atlanta to hang out with Sami :)
10. catch a falling star (even one from Hollywood) – yeah, I’m still waiting for Gerard Butler to shoot a movie in Romania…
11. star in a movie (perhaps in my dreams) – I didn’t, but my cat Mishu is the star of my homemade videos :)
12. sing with Bon Jovi – DID THIS TOO!!! And live! Them on stage and me in the audience :)

Ok, since most of the items on this list have been accomplished I should come up with some new ones. Perhaps after I’m coming back from Rome… ;)

a new start

haven't blogged in quite a while and i'm starting to miss it :)
was thinking of getting back to it but never seemed to find the time. things at work are hectic and don't seem to improve unfortunately. even though one of the girls who was on maternity leave got back to work at the beginning of this month i'm still stuck with a lot of paperwork... i'm explaining her things she used to do in the past (like 2 years ago) and also some new things, not complicated, but she's always distracted and doesn't write down anything. i remember when i first came to work here i had to learn things on my own. the girl who had my job had moved to marketing and didn't help me much. she was telling me where to go, who to talk to, but not sitting down with me and showing me how to actually do things. several reports she only showed me once hot to do them and then i was on my own. lucky for me i'm a very fast learner ;). and now everyone comes to me to ask for help, and i'm glad to offer it :)
ok, getting back to blogging, i've decided to move here from yahoo 360. haven't blogged there from august last year either, but i was starting to lose interest for it anyways. it was getting too "flashy" for me... wonder if i can import my blogs from there...
i'll get back here tomorrow for a fresh new start ;)

stuck in a moment

She opened her eyes and looked at the clock. It showed 3:15, but outside it was already light and she could hear some seagulls, so it must have been at least 7. Then she remembered he had taken out the battery. She looked at him sleeping peacefully next to her and slowly, trying not to wake him up, turned on her other side. Suddenly she felt his arm around her waist, pulling her closer, then his warm lips on her naked shoulder made her shiver…
She felt something moving next to her legs and woke up to see it was only the kitten that had woken up and wanted to play. She realized she was in her own room, alone, and that she had dreamt again. But the things she dreamt of had already happened. Hard as she might try she couldn’t get out of her mind everything that had happened three weeks before, the wonderful moments she had spent with him and how short time after that he disappeared without saying a word, without giving an explanation… It seemed to her she was stuck in the past and nothing could bring her into the present. It had happened before, but this time it seemed to be hurting a lot more and taking a longer time to heal… She was sorry she had believed everything he said, all the plans that he was making. She was sorry she rushed into things and had let them go too far. She should have been more careful… Now she’s picking up the pieces of her broken heart and getting back up and back in the game. The cruel game of love… It’s like riding a horse, they say, if it throws you off, just get back in the saddle and try again. She is sick of always trying and failing. He had told her to let him be her last try. And she trusted him wholeheartedly. Hopefully he did not fool her entirely… Hopefully he was her last try and the next one will be for real…
She is strong and she knows she will eventually be again the person she was before knowing him. And she will enjoy life again, even if she is by herself. She doesn’t need anybody else to make her feel complete, though she thought she needed him… But there is still one question on her mind: “Why?”.........................................